曾经以为有些事情只关两个人, 可是事情往往总不会和我想象的一样简单.很多事情偏偏不愿意多想,妈妈说要赌就赌大的,两年可能发生很多事情,很多事情多会变,我说如有异心,不得好死.是承诺,比CROSS MY HEART, HOPE TO DIE更严重的承诺. 其实很可怜,16岁到现在,快10年,到底曾经经历过几次真正的恋爱,只有我自己知道.宁愿相信人一生只有一次真爱,其他的只是错爱.这样的想法可以让自己更加坚定. 周六下午看的电影里的情节让人有些惆怅,所谓看不懂的剧情安排有时候会给人更多的想象空间.这个年代缺少的不是水,而是人与人之间的亲密和信赖。西瓜只是爱的替代品，香甜，却是伪装的爱。
还记得去年夏天，差不多每天5个小时在上下班路上，每天像发了疯似的听同一首歌，GREEN DAY的Boulevard of Broken Dreams，虽然从来没有因为那些挫折而彻底放弃自己的梦想，但是这歌词真的很切合当时的心情。 I walk a lonely road The only one I that have ever known Don't know where it goes But it's home to me and I walk alone I walk this empty street On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams Were the city sleeps And I'm the only one and I walk alone My shadow's the only one that walks beside me My heart's the only thing that's beating Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me 'Til then I'll walk alone 刚开始听的时候或许会很难过，听久了反而让自己坚持...默默等待好过不负责任的放纵。事实是，所有的等待都是值得的。 算算认识已经快一年了，在一起的日子不长却已经有点离不开他了，虽然常常惹对方生气，好在总会雨过天晴。从离开机场的那一刻开始就觉得若有所失，还有六十几个小时，却还是觉得漫长无比，或许应该慢慢习惯他这样暂时的离开，但是却不能说服自己自如地度过没有他的日日夜夜，或许我从来都不是洒脱的人。 晚饭的时候爸爸和我说起电视新闻里那个某公司前台和某台湾人的故事，我知道他不放心，可是不放心又能怎样。我告诉他前阵子某台湾国宝级男子为了一个SH女人得忧郁症上吊的事情，爸爸也就没有再说什么。本来嘛，很多事情都是注定的，哪里来的谁对谁错。注定的事情，躲不过去，也强求不来。
嘈杂,无序,拥挤的马路,稀少的树木,林立的水泥楼房,行色匆匆的路人...这就是我从小长大的地方.从来没有喜欢或留恋,对这个城市没有好感.一直都没有. 最近频繁的离开, 才感觉到对这座城市的眷恋,因为所有的记忆都是关于这里,太多美好的或者是无趣的关于成长的记忆,于是会有不自觉的眷恋,或是一种习惯. 相信,所有的人,包括外星人,那种对家的依恋都是一样的,只是孰轻孰重的问题. 有点不知所以了,LET IT BE
Time is going so slowly. It still takes 2 and a half hours to arriving Shanghai. I have just been told that there are about 10 stops during this short journey. What a nightmare! Maybe that is because I haven't had such kind of trips in last several times.
18:00, Haining, a small town that I have never known before in my lifetime. The train is becoming more and more crowded and noisy. Everything is so boring. Here comes a group of ladies in forties, having their feet on the seats, talking about trifles loudly and laughing in the same voice. I am just wondering how wonderful their life is, which makes them want to tell the whole world. I tried to play some stupid games in my laptop. But soon I found it is even more stupid way to kill time in the train. The noises coming from the railway, wheels, windows and the ladies in front of me almost killed me. And I can not sleep not only for the noisy but also the dirty surrounding. I can't help to make up my mind to choose another way to go back home next time. Maybe I should take a better train from Hangzhou station. Anyway I can not wait for one more night to Saturday.
It is 18:30 now. It is still raining outside. This is a beautiful small city, Jiaxing. I saw the nice South Lake moment ago. I can not believe how I pass the following 2 hours or even longer. Flirting might be a good choice for a boring girl like me. And a cute baby girl is hold by her mother sitting beside me. Suddenly, I am stuck into some sort of pain in the depth of my heart. "Things change, people change." This sentence comes from a famous TV play named "Friends". Sometimes I hate my good memory. I ought to learn how to forget the past if I want to be happy. I thought I could achieve it but why that feeling still flashed in my mind. And it makes me not dare to think about the future any more.
19:00. Kevin has just called me. I know he is not in a good mood today. No one can be happy after 2 sleepless nights. No one can compare to him. If I have to describe him in one word, maybe the only one I can use is SPLENDID. It is like a magic that I meet him in my plain and ordinary life.
19:30, I am closer and closer to the guy whom I have been meeting for the whole week. I can not wait.
It is a little bit stranger to listen to some house music while working. But it just can make me more efficient. Kevin is so smart that he knew I am a rythem addictor. Nothing in music is more important that this element. That's the reason I like R&B, Funk, house, punk,techno...and just have no feeling for music like Jazz...
Now...Ciara TIME You changed the game I like it thug style Hey you its me turn the music down So you can hear my imitation Now what I want u to do is come through the crib right now Without hesitation So don’t ask me what I want Cuz I want u to hurry up And get over here and see me Act just like u need me Hurry hurry hurry Got ten minutes Tick tock Where u at Looking at my clock its about that time Knock knock There u is I’ve been waiting on u for a long long time Baby don’t stop stop I don’t mind if u make me hot hot Cuz imma keep your love on lock lock Lock ooh ohh yeah
Now my parents are gone And I cant believe its me who needed to see u Nobodys home we can kick it all night I no that u don’t have a curfew Now don’t move too fast But don’t move too slow Baby catch the rhythm that im giving u Ooh I love the rhythm I’m feelin u
Something bout u that’s got me wantin u like I do Baby now I cant wait for your love I anticipate ooh Baby just tell your friends that you wont be with them tonight Baby its u and me so put your hands up and feel this
This is the third time that he comes to the place I work these days... He is such a picky guy...still...he comes to the place that he called "NONGCUN".. You stay a little while and touch me with your smile and charming eyes What can I say to make you mine to reach out for you in time?
We had our first breakfast though it was not made by myself...I just hope I can finish this stupid Saturday working asap.
I forgot to buy the diet coke...I can not live without it...just like u...shall go downstairs to get some right now...
Sweetie, maybe we come from the different planets, I still believe that we can share the same feeling and emotion...
或许这个晚上,我所整理的并不仅仅是这个小小的网络空间,还有自己的心情和思绪... 独自在外工作并不是一件容易和简单的事情,这里几乎没有朋友,除了工作和思念,别无其他 虽然空调还是不断的发出怪声音,但是房间里弥漫着百合的香味让人感觉还是非常惬意... 昨天不敢太早入睡...因为老公出去陪韩国人喝酒...不管怎样,除了他的身体,我什么都不担心. 或许有了这种牵挂生活才能完整... Anyway he is the most greatest guy I have ever met, so smart and sensitive. Suddenly, thinking of some sentences in a book named Little Prince. "If you need me, find my star, If you listen carefully,you can hear me laugh..." It is true that if someone is in ur heart, he will be all around you...and never gonna leave
有人说,清晨起来的第一个表情代表了她内心的情感,那个时候没有人可以伪装... 5点25分,准时起床,一脸惊慌失措和迷惘..这个时候才知道原来自己有多脆弱... 如果可以,如果昨晚没有.. 突然觉得原来blue的歌是如此悲伤, sorry seems to be the hardest word . what I gotta do to make you want me. what I gotta do to be heard... 不敢继续听下去了
Have never been so low... 听快乐的歌,专心工作.still turn out to be useless...
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